I view a movie days ago ,
The movie is bout a single mother ,
with 3 kid ,
Husband passed awy , left her alone n the bag of responsibility to a family ,
i saw she never give up , she learn to be a mother and a father ....
at the same time , i realize sumthing ,

that is my dad ,
although i have my mum n dad ,
in my life i nvr let them have the joy as a mum n dad ...

Time passed so so so fast ,
And now , is the time 4me to make my decision ...
Is the time i had to release all my strength on my studies ....
Is time 4 me to giv me myself the chance to make the difference ...

I proclaim that im not good in any subject , but i will try my best to prevent the tears of Regret falls down ....

There is always Hope for me n U ...

~Lay Your Hands~

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..

'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Come and lay your hands on me.

Long Bia LO !!!!

Oh Man !!!! 29dys more , am i suspose to study more harder or do as many revision as i can !!!???
Come JASON LING HENG YI !!!!
Y u dnt want to open ur books !!!!
Myb no ppl want to do revision together wit u , u can do it by yourself ma !!!!!

Haiz , all of my friends are holding a book where ever they go , n i ?? how about me ??
still hanging out wit guys hu are interesting in studies !!!
Oh shit !!! Last saturday , some more hanging at TELUK BATIK .....

Do i suffer in depression o ?
Friday nite , i suspose to be in church , as a musician ...
but i feel so ill , then i went out , juz dnt noe y , i went to GAINT , then i realize tat im realy lonely n hopeless ....


haiz , LONG BIA ah !!!!!



or myb i still have chance so make a different .....

~ 39days ~

Days passed by ,
somethings i learn to pick up ,
somethings i learn to give up ,

I'll give up the impossible ,
the impossible like u ,
Maybe u came into my life last time ;
i can't make u stay ,
but i can let u leave ;
leave with joy and blessing ,
you'll know that im still care about you ...

I picked up things i use to forget u ,
i know i can' keep on whole on u ,

Realize .....

Hmmmm ,
10days of holidays , it suppose to make me feel more desire to study ,
NOT TO EAT !!!!
1st day in school , really makes me wanna vomit , cuz the smell of our Toilet gave me all the bad memory back ,
nvm la im already use to it , bcuz , there is human then this smell won't gone , 5years !!! the smell still the same , won't change ...


But , in this Fifth year , things that change , things that remains the same , or the thing that been replaced ,
all re in my mind ....

The way i talk , the way i jokes , i found maturities grown in me , although im not the best but ...
i try to be good to each another , im not that kind of person who can sit down quietly n read my books , thats why i can't get a good result , or maybe i need to cut out the time 4 me to play ,
But not the time for GOD .....

People arround me has change , they become more mature , and they makes me feel pressure when talk to them , sometimes i felt im not that good when compare with their Results , but i will always say to myself , everyone have their own Future n Mission , we can't look down on anyone or anybody .....

Some things that i don't like , PLS !!!! Don't compare me with my parents !!!
They are teachers , but im also a human , a human that need to be love , n to be criticizing ,
my mum n dad are a good Teacher n The Best Parents in my life , my bad result is not because of them , All because of me !!!
i need to take all the responsibility for my own ....
Not them ....


U can look down on me now , But u better DON'T look down on my Parents ,
Maybe u look down on me now , but u will regret in THE END ...

Thank You for the friends that support in anything i do , although it is juz a smile , but its gave me a tank of power to keep on moving ...

Thank You for the one who look down on me now , u gave me more motivation to move on ...

Thank You for my Brother n Sister , u all gave me a hug when i need it , a hug or a words that support , means a lot , a lot for me ....

Thank You Mum n Dad , u don't give any hope on me , sometimes make me feels like vry pressure , but all of this is worthy for my future ...


In The End ,
I want to thx a person , myb he is not a human also , hahaha , he's not ,
He nvr forsake me , n 4giv me in everything , he is my best listener , he give me the best hug when i need it so badly , where ever i go , he know im there , and he will nvr give up on me , when im tired he will just give me rest , when im hungry he fee me , when i had a bad mood he will let me complain with him , although im rude he is the one who forgive me at the 1st ....
Thank You ......