Knocking ~

23dec 2009 ~
lonely kept on knocking my heart's door ~
Suppose get ready my begs ,
ready to forget sitiawan , and her ...

Anyone listen the same song with me at nite ??
Missing is juz the starts of sadness ,
Wind run in to my chest ,
reminded me , i need to be strong ..

600km away from here ,
Miss ???
nope , i will miss it so much ~~
Tears can't make me strong ...
but its remind me that i need to be strong ,
i will remember how to cry and how to stand up again ~

Home is always the place i feel strong , i feel proud ...
The sentence of I Love You from Mum n Dad's heart , they mean it ~
Learning to be tearless ~
but i fail in strong ~

Crying when im alone in my room ,
tell God that im really tired to facing the next second ..
tears remind me to love myself more ~

I'll saved the moment we meet in my mind 4ever ...
Knock ... Knock ... Knock ....
im knocking on the door of Lonely again , again and again ~

hope i'll be better ~
listen to the wind ,
she is telling me something !!!
She said , i shall not stop , till im tired and old , if not i had choose lonely in my life ...

tell her the truth , that im not the best , i dnt have the best look ,
but i have a great heart ....

Sorry ....

Rainbow ~

Raining season ya ...
My heart is melting by the pouring rain ...
Wind blows on my face , can't breath , suffer and pain begin ...
My lips break as my heart breaks together ...
Pain Killer ?? I took twice after my lonely dinner , yet , my brain still telling me that my heart is still warm , but the pain is always there ...

Sometimes rain makes us feel sad and emotional ...
There is always a beautiful RAINBOW after the heavy rain ...

The pouring rain is made by god ,
but god always , always , promise that he will let u smile every time after your tears ...
he heard , the sound when u cover urself with ur blanket and cry ...
every tears of u , he kept , and made a promise to u , after u cry , u must smile ...

Raining seen to be a bad things to us , but , i hope to see a beautiful RAINBOW ....
Rain , rain go away , little Rainbow want to smile ...

U re Rainbow ...
u re colourless at first , but u'll be colourfull in the end ...
learning to smile after u cry , smile after u have a fight or arguing , smile like rainbow ....

Rain ha ... I think about Rainbow ...
Pain ... I think about Happiness ...
Cry ... I think about Joy ...
Sad ... I think about Hope ...

Rainbow comes from Heavy Rain ...


Friend , smile and say sorry to the one that hurts you ,
its hard , but its worthy .....
Rmb , rainbow is beautiful , but its comes from the rain that no one likes at the 1st place ...


(leave a comment the last time u meet a rain n how u see a rainbow after it)

Give Thanks For 10 Things Everyday (~~,)

Too Many Complaining ya ???
Too Many thing u think is unfair ...
Yup , it seen unfair , but u can always have chance to Give Thanks ....

Ya , many thing i can give thx for ...
17year , and 10things that i give thanks the most ....


1. Thanks God that i born in a christian family ... Although we are facing the problem of finance , but we are always living in faith ....

2. Give Thanks that im fat , bcuz i can learn to be more humble ...

3. Thanks God that i have Great Parents , mum n dad ...
they always support me , always give me the best in their life ...
their time ... never give up on me ... hold me when i and sad , love me when there is no ppl in this world love me ...

4. Im sytill alive , 2005 dec 26 , after the celebration of X-mas , me and a few friends were going back to church for so cleaning work ... at that time , i was crazy bout motor bike ... so i borrow a bike from my friend ERIC TAN ( a good person ) , i was speeding down in kg cina highway ....
there is a corner with 80degree , when i was speeding down , a pajero suddenly rush ( driver is heading to my uncle's workshop ) , i lost my stable when i saw that truck ....
and i made a break , but i press the wrong pedal ( thats the 2nd time i drive a SCOTER ) , sand on the road make me fall down ..... I started to call out : Jesus !!! Save me ...
after that , juz within 1second ... i feel like some one pushing me away from the lamp stand , without the push , im going to hell that second .... and i realize that , if u don't want to listen to ur mum n dad's advise , u will suffer ... and i noe that god sent his angel to save me at that single second ... After i got in to a car ,
i heard a malay said: Sudah mati ke ?? Motor itu 90% Sudah hancur !!!! KAlau hidup , pun cacat juga ...
God !!! Thanks 4saving me ...


5. Thank you that , a have many friend !!!! Friend that share good times n bad times with me ....


6. Thank you , that i am a chiness !!!! Because i can eat many food !!! Wow !!! I love to be a chiness !!!!! And chiness is a guiness of language !!!!!!


7. Thanks God that , i can have 2brother , so that im not lonely , got ppl to fight with !!!!
wow !!!!! hahahaha !!! That the way we train ourself on How To Communicate with PeoPle when we grow up ... wakakakaka !!!!


8. Thanks God that , i noe how to play musical instrument !!! So that i can serve him , and bring joy to other ppl .....


9. Thanks god that , i learn how to be a good friend and a good listener ... thanks god that he sent me many friend with difference faces and attitude , so that i can learn hoe to mess with them , and train my patient and LOve ....


10. Last Thing to Give Thanks is , god give me hope to face tomorrow .....
Without fear , without pity ....
More Faith , and more Love ...



Friends , start to Give Thanks before it is too late ...
Give Thanks to ppl around u ....
And Give thanks to the one who created u ....

Im leaving ....T_T ....

Im leaving ,
im not bringing any of my memories on this land ,
to another place named Lonely ...

Selfish in my heart ,
can't make me bring anything on this land with me ,
The song i sing ,
the tears i left here ...

The friendship will never ends here ,
it sound hard ,
but that's the only way 4me to go on ....

Im on my way to Lonely , Alone ..
My guitar reminds me ,
the 1st song i sing 4 u ...
and the last song i will sing ....

Pls ....

Give me flowers ,
when im still can smell it ...
Give me ur courage ,
when i need it ....

Give me ur praise ,
when im still listening ...
Give me love ,
when im still can feel it ...

Lend me ur hug ,
when im still can feel warm ....
Pull me up ,
when im fall down , and still can get up ...

Sing to me ,
when im still hearing ...
speak to me ,
when im still awake ...

Tell me all the story in your life ,
when i still have strength to listen ....
Lend me your power ,
when im still can replying u a Thank You ...

Don't wait till the time ,
i sleeps , and never never get up ....

Thanks ~

Playing a sad song on my guitar ,
Singing a sad song with a wrong key ;
i found that im no longer the Kid thats naked his foot n have games on under the hot sun ...

Im leaving here ,
going to a place that i never been alone ,
waiting the sun set ;
waiting the sky to turn dark ,
all by myself ...

Bring out my guitar ,
singing songs with my tears ,
a song that will make me smile ,
empty in my mind n heart ,
i know i will be alright ,
but i don't want to keep lying on myself ,
its hurts ....

4get the last words i said to u ,
miss the last session of studies i do ,
reminds me , im still on my way ....

im heading to a place that's called Lonely ,
17years 3month n 5days ,
missing everyone in my life ,
U said i had to be strong ,
thats an easy words ,
but it took long time to mastered ....

Give me flowers ,
when im still can smell ...
Give me courage ,
when im still hearing ....
Give me love ,
when im still can feel it ...
Give me praise ,
b4 i stop my breath ....

Sing to me ,
when im still listening ....
Teach me ,
when my eyes still open ....
Stay by my side ,
b4 i leave this world ....
Lend my ur hand ,
when im still feel warm ....

Give me tissue ,
when my tears still falling ....
Give me support ,
when i need it ....

Don't wait till the time ,
i sleeps , n never get up ........

I view a movie days ago ,
The movie is bout a single mother ,
with 3 kid ,
Husband passed awy , left her alone n the bag of responsibility to a family ,
i saw she never give up , she learn to be a mother and a father ....
at the same time , i realize sumthing ,

that is my dad ,
although i have my mum n dad ,
in my life i nvr let them have the joy as a mum n dad ...

Time passed so so so fast ,
And now , is the time 4me to make my decision ...
Is the time i had to release all my strength on my studies ....
Is time 4 me to giv me myself the chance to make the difference ...

I proclaim that im not good in any subject , but i will try my best to prevent the tears of Regret falls down ....

There is always Hope for me n U ...

~Lay Your Hands~

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..

'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Come and lay your hands on me.

Long Bia LO !!!!

Oh Man !!!! 29dys more , am i suspose to study more harder or do as many revision as i can !!!???
Come JASON LING HENG YI !!!!
Y u dnt want to open ur books !!!!
Myb no ppl want to do revision together wit u , u can do it by yourself ma !!!!!

Haiz , all of my friends are holding a book where ever they go , n i ?? how about me ??
still hanging out wit guys hu are interesting in studies !!!
Oh shit !!! Last saturday , some more hanging at TELUK BATIK .....

Do i suffer in depression o ?
Friday nite , i suspose to be in church , as a musician ...
but i feel so ill , then i went out , juz dnt noe y , i went to GAINT , then i realize tat im realy lonely n hopeless ....


haiz , LONG BIA ah !!!!!



or myb i still have chance so make a different .....

~ 39days ~

Days passed by ,
somethings i learn to pick up ,
somethings i learn to give up ,

I'll give up the impossible ,
the impossible like u ,
Maybe u came into my life last time ;
i can't make u stay ,
but i can let u leave ;
leave with joy and blessing ,
you'll know that im still care about you ...

I picked up things i use to forget u ,
i know i can' keep on whole on u ,

Realize .....

Hmmmm ,
10days of holidays , it suppose to make me feel more desire to study ,
NOT TO EAT !!!!
1st day in school , really makes me wanna vomit , cuz the smell of our Toilet gave me all the bad memory back ,
nvm la im already use to it , bcuz , there is human then this smell won't gone , 5years !!! the smell still the same , won't change ...


But , in this Fifth year , things that change , things that remains the same , or the thing that been replaced ,
all re in my mind ....

The way i talk , the way i jokes , i found maturities grown in me , although im not the best but ...
i try to be good to each another , im not that kind of person who can sit down quietly n read my books , thats why i can't get a good result , or maybe i need to cut out the time 4 me to play ,
But not the time for GOD .....

People arround me has change , they become more mature , and they makes me feel pressure when talk to them , sometimes i felt im not that good when compare with their Results , but i will always say to myself , everyone have their own Future n Mission , we can't look down on anyone or anybody .....

Some things that i don't like , PLS !!!! Don't compare me with my parents !!!
They are teachers , but im also a human , a human that need to be love , n to be criticizing ,
my mum n dad are a good Teacher n The Best Parents in my life , my bad result is not because of them , All because of me !!!
i need to take all the responsibility for my own ....
Not them ....


U can look down on me now , But u better DON'T look down on my Parents ,
Maybe u look down on me now , but u will regret in THE END ...

Thank You for the friends that support in anything i do , although it is juz a smile , but its gave me a tank of power to keep on moving ...

Thank You for the one who look down on me now , u gave me more motivation to move on ...

Thank You for my Brother n Sister , u all gave me a hug when i need it , a hug or a words that support , means a lot , a lot for me ....

Thank You Mum n Dad , u don't give any hope on me , sometimes make me feels like vry pressure , but all of this is worthy for my future ...


In The End ,
I want to thx a person , myb he is not a human also , hahaha , he's not ,
He nvr forsake me , n 4giv me in everything , he is my best listener , he give me the best hug when i need it so badly , where ever i go , he know im there , and he will nvr give up on me , when im tired he will just give me rest , when im hungry he fee me , when i had a bad mood he will let me complain with him , although im rude he is the one who forgive me at the 1st ....
Thank You ......

sORRY sIS ....

Dnt noe y lah ...
when u try to take care some one u love ,
but in the end it turns up as anger n dislike ...


hmm , sorry Wendy , bro dnt noe how to do , and , myb i dnt deserve any forgiveness ,
but juz wanna tell u that , although u angry with me , n myb the way i use to care is wrong ,
but i dnt mean to hurt u ...
im still learning to be a better bro ...


im really sorry if i make i feel ashamed or irritating ,
im here to apologize , what i had done ,
My bad .....
When u need me juz let me noe la ...
I wont talk to u till u cooled down ...

sorry ya ...

Attitude that i want ...

You cannot win the race, Unless you follow through.
You cannot blame the others, For it all depends on you.

You cannot win the battle, If you do not raise your sword.
You cannot claim a victory, If there is no reward.

You cannot shape the future, If you wait until it's here.
The future has no purpose, If you live today in fear.

Your future lies within your hand, To do with what you may.
For tomorrow brings results, Of what you've done today.

The choices that you make today, Reflect the life you seek.
But first of all, the seeds are sown, Before the gardener reaps.

The future's like a lump of clay, You hold within your hand.
As time goes by, the clay gets hard ; So mold it while you can.

Failure is an attitude,That haunts the mind of man.
But, results will be successful, For the one who knows HE CAN!

Days Be4 BBQ ....

Hello !!! Few days b4 BBQ means , the preparation for the BBQ at my house ,
We use 3days to make all the preparation 4or the best BBq ...
At the same time , we form a club , that is BBQ club , the theme is "Just for Fun" ..

































Organizer : Jason Ling
Adviser : Christopher Seah
Meat Department : Jia Yi , Angel Lim
Water Department : Jared Ling , Marcus Ho
BBQ VIP : Jeffery Lim n Chester Teoh


We are going out to buy some food n dessert , for our BBQ , hahahaha , although we are tired , but we have a nice shopping day ...

Missing Something ...

Hmm ,
i think i will miss some thing after leaving my school ....
Juz the second day after Trial exam ,
i felt so HEAVY in my heart ;
where will we meet in future ? After school ...

Things that happen school ..
i wont forget , like this chiness new year ,
Me and Tek Hui had a Bad memory , that kind of feeling is always in my mind ...


Then i have a bad quarrel with in my class , haiz ... i think myb im mature in the outside , but always unmature in the inside , T,T ...
i learn many things in this 5years in NAN HWA , although in this 5years im facing the same food in canteen , but the difference people passed by , difference things happen ....


Im always alone , when im lonely in the class room ...
tat time , i tried to be strong , i tough many things in my life ,
i will face it by using my little Faith , but i always the one who fail , Fail in Friendship , Fail in Math , Fail in my life .....


In the 1st day in form 1 ,
I told myself : Jason , u're no longer a kid , u have to be strong in every things , no matter what happen in your life , some one bully u , u must protect yourself , and You WILL be better , u can be the Pioneer of building relationship in friendship , u'll build the broken Fship between friends ... Tears will never comes out from your eyes , not thing is hard for you .......



In this 5years , i didn't keep my promise ,
really tired , really tired , Tired in every thing i do , the relationship that i tear up ...
i lost my faith of living in my life , what should i do now ...
i tried to rebuild every thing i had taken ...
juz realize , once its broken , its gone , turn into dust , gone , not even a single chance ....



Time passed so fast ...
I learn to act ...
Act to be really good in every thing ...
But Every actors have their sad story behind the screen ...
Im really sorry for cheating my friends ...


Is hard to said : im sorry . although You are right ...
hahaha , but i did it ...
the one who said sorry at the 1st , he or she is not looser , but the one
who did wrong and don't want to confess , then he is ...


I mean every words i said ,
maybe i use the wrong words , sentences ...
Im Really want both of us to be better in future ...


Im sorry if i wrote some things that hurt you guys , or said some thing rude ,
im here to say sorry , Please 4give me ,
bcuz , im still learning ....
Still learning to be good ...


Lets Be Better ...
Im sorry Friends , cuz im really not that good .....

Endding Of Trial !!!!

:{) !!!!

End liao leh !!! Really !?
hahaha , finally ya ...
Two Things in my heart i wanna giv thank is
1: this is not real SPM
2: Still have time to prepare

Hahaha , Friends beside me said , when the time reaches 12:45pm lets shout it out loud ...
hahahaha !!!! then when the time reach liao ,
.......... silent
.........silent
....... silent
No ppl shout , hahaha , i think everyone i dreaming tonight must go where to WET liao lo !!! hahahaha , me also , so many planning in my CLEVER mind .....


Chiness paper 1 , the paper want me to write 作文 ... yayaya !!! so many points !!!!!!!!!
many points of going where to wet , and tonight go where to play ... hahaha !!!


POINTS :
1. Go lumut eat ice kacang
2. Go drive go cart
3. Go out hanging with friends ....
4. Ipoh sing karakok

Idea for tomorrow :
1. Go swimming
2. Go K.L
3. PAINT BALLS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. Pergi LIM TEA !!! ( i love it )




Walau wei JASON LING
人叫你写作文,你乱乱想!!!
haiz , too good in play liao !!!



hahaha , some more kacac WENDY juz now !!!
笑死我!!!!!
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!!!!!
妹妹要原谅哥哥噢.....




Who want go WET call me !!!!





u wont regret !!!!

《暗恋》~~陶喆

Still lonely still loney
昨晚又再见到你 你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说 就傻傻看着你
渴望永远这距离 就是和你在一起
醒来发现这一切都只是我的梦境
告诉自己要冷静 却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心 还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能阻止我 我要暗恋你
So lonely
So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
So lonely
今晚渴望再见你 虽然只是在梦想
短暂的甜蜜也胜过了一辈子没有你
就算没快乐结局 就算从此死了心
我要付出我所有诚意 只要能感动你
我愿意
So lonely so here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 我要为你怎么做你才接受我（才接受我）
我喜欢你（我喜欢你）我要你（我要你）
我爱你
So here I am standing all alone（standing all alone）
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
So here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
Im lonely
故事就说到这里 就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密

在那某一个街头 会流传某个旋律

那是我在轻轻唱着歌 我多爱你Janny




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mSdIzPIRRQ



A good song !!! I love it !!!

Trial Exam , BYE BYE !!!

Last Day for my Trial Exam ....
So cool !!! 2day is chemistry , it is the weakest subject that i have ...

2 and a half hour ... i use only 30min to finish paper2 !!!! oh god !!!

I slept for 2hours !!! my friend beside said he listen to my 梦话 ...
KANASAI , some more 串 me o ....
walau , he said (忘记了) ....
Wa Biang !!!! Hahaha , for me today is the most sucks day ...


Aftr paper 1 , i saw deb .. she is laying on her desk ... so i go kacau her ... WALIU !!! she SCOLDED me : 安静啦 !!!!!!
what the ... so Throw Face (丢脸) ....


I made a conclusion :
Don't kacau a girl when she is sleeping , they really like lion when they haven sleep enough ....


hahahaha ... not bad la , at least can have a rest although don't noe how to do ....
hope in this month i can improve all my weak subjects ...

i need supports ya !!!! THX !!!!!

咖啡 !!!!

If u are not an OWL ... pls !!! dont drink SARAWAK coffee !!!!

Haiz , what a terrible Day !!!

Story begin ....
Tomorrow is my addmath test ... then my Dad invite me go out WET(play)
Then i can't stand the 诱惑...
I went out to meet Dad n His Friends ....
We have Ayer Tawar 的板面 !!! Oh god !!! that is so good one !!!
The Aunty gave us the coffee FROM SARAWAK !!!
Bcuz she made too many , so she force us to finish it ...
Untill the 2nd cup , i nearly penning !!!! So i went back ...


WALiU WEI !!! At nite , im juz like an OWL .....
I tough is 好事 .... Then i started my last REVIsion .... Time passed so fast , till 5am , im still like an Dargon .....

2nd day ... KANASAI !!!! I Sleep on my addmath paper1 !!!! almost 7question i missed !!!! SHIT !!!!

Betui , Betui dont try tat thing if u r not Coffee KAKI ....

ARTS in every coner !!!

Ok !!! start from my school !!! in my school phy lab , there is a few examples ....
they are the persona !!! What a good POEM( i really mean it ) !!!
1. i think he should show it 2her ...
2. is a good way u express wat u feel !!! but not on ur desk !!!
3. a hurting poem , with some korean(i dnt noe wat is the meaning ) ....
4. a poem named STUPID !!

wat happen !!!

this morning , when i wake up , i feel like i am missing some thing , a fimiliar sound !!!! i sat down n i stared 2 think , wats happening ?
Oh god !!! My dog , Baby Ling Kena curi(stolen) !!!
she is cute !!! but naughty ...
how comes ? she is juz a small dog !!! where is the humanity !? sum more in the morning !! walau wei !!! betui2 tak ada otak !!!!!!!!!
if u wan u can ask , bt nt 2 steal !!
ask , sure i will giv u ma ... haiz ...
Bt i will 4giv u n bless u( the one who steal my dog) hope u will come n apologize 2 me ... i wont sing u the song IS TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE !!!

.... ~Music~ ....

It born b4 us ...
It is a part of my life ...
from the king David 2 the King Of POP ...

there always a song 4the new born , there is always a song 4the senior ,
and there always 4the dead ...

life is music , is a nice song from the start , it can turn to sorrow ...

and u r the one WHO make IT happen ....

u r music !!! Play out the best u have , let my tears fall out of my eyes ....

Let the Beautiful chords , tone and Rhythm sound out ....

STOP , juz stop ur sorrow .....

BE your best !!!!

Friend !!!

Oh my goodness !!!
Im so sucks !!!
but thx god i have u all .... amen ...
i get sad some times ...
Ur r my good listener , my best cash ...


yap .... is good 2have u all ...
some times i hurt u all .. pls 4giv me ...

Short Life ...

When i was born , i cried , but ppl beside me smile , maybe thats the way we grown up ..

when im mature , i take my responsibility 4my future ....

i'm old , i know 2 use my pass 2 reminds the young , 2 take the right steps ...

I waste my life ... I use dis second to make next sec Pretty , i just let her go ,

time is fast , life was short .

In the EnD i smile , but my friends , brother and sister Cried ... i love all of my friend n my relative ....

start !!!

Start , is the begin of every thing ...

it start wit passion , vision , dream , mission ....

tears n sweat tat fall down from my face , worth every things ...

take the challange , 2be the diffrence n the special .....

not the ending is not the most , but the journey ...

but it is easy when i started wit a prayer ...

is better n the best 2 have him goes on wit me ....